AISHA’s Blog

This story
happened early in the morning of my birthday. I was on my way back to Amsterdam from  a friend’s place in Delft.

I woke up earlier
because I had to go back to

Amsterdam

It was 7.30 AM. The other girls were still sleeping. Hmm… they were still
sleeping….(how I wish I could sleep a little longer). Anyway, I was preparing
everything I needed back to Amsterdam.
I had to catch my train at 9.00 AM. So there I was, at the tram station,
waiting for the tram going to Delft CS.

 “Oh no! It’s just
left!”

I’ve missed my
tram(!) It was just passing in front of my nose =(((

“Fine…I’ll wait
for the next one”, I told myself, trying to be calm. 
Delft is a
small city. That morning was a very quite morning. Not so many vehicles on the road, nor
people around. Or perhaps, it is just because that the area is not the centre
of the city. Arrgghh…I had to wait for the next tram. I was wondering why the
tram wasn’t coming. The timetable says that it should have come. Something must
be wrong.

Oh yes, I saw a
guy (a black person) walking around. He was approaching the tram station. I
didn’t know why, but I had a bad feeling (it’s my instinct i guess). Something told me that something was not right.

Oh dear…, he
really was coming to the station. “It’s ok Vina, no prob”, I was trying to calm
myself down. “But hey…this is so not okay…” (thoughts were fighting inside my
brain). He was staring at me. His eye balls almost came out of his eyes,
devilish grin and he smelled so horrible! His dress looked weird, for such warm
season (well ok, it was a bit windy tho). He had a long coat on. He looked like
very drunk.

 “Oh geez, I can’t
stand this smell.”, I talked to myself. I pushed myself away to the other end
of the platform. Pheeeww….

“O no!” He was
still staring at me and that leer…that nasty leer…nnnoooooooo!!! Disgusting! Huh,
woteva! I ain’t care. “Ignore him Vina”, I told myself.

The tram was not coming
yet while the tram at the opposite station has come twice. I was really
desperate waiting for the tram and feeling like escaping myself from the guy.

I was so scared
and panic. I was really afraid of that guy!!!! I hate that look and that
horrific face! Blah! I was looking around if I could see other people so I
didn’t need to feel alone or to be afraid because of the guy. But…, huaaaa!!!!

There weren’t so many people around! Only 1- 2 cars passing by and not
more than 5 people walking around the place where I was waiting for the tram! (In
all of a sudden, I missed Amsterdam so deeply-truly-madly from the deepest part of my heart).

I was thinking
about calling K’Fenny to tell her that I was so scared of the guy and panic
about the tram (mostly about the guy. I could wait for the tram). Just to
lighten my adrenaline… get some comforted feeling, you know. I just needed
someone to talk to.

“No Vina, you can
do it! It’s ok. It’s gonna be ok. You’ll be fine.”, again, I tried to calm
myself down.  

Anyway, I was
just afraid that he would snatch my mobile away while I make a phone call. So,
I decided not to call K’Fenny. Bbuuuttttt…..I, eventually, called her hehehe (tak tahan..). I called her to ask her if
she knew when the tram was gonna come because the timetable and the tram just
didn’t match. Well, I know that I didn’t need to call her ‘cos she doesn’t live
there. She lives in A’dam, just like me. See, I just needed someone to talk to.
To release the pressure in my blood vessels. So she gave the phone to K’Mir
‘cos she lives in Delft. She knows the tram and bus things here, very well.

At first, I
didn’t wanna tell her about the guy. But it slipped on my lips (hehe). When I
spoke to her on the phone, I could really feel that my blood pressure mounted from
feet to head. My voice suddenly became very small…. I almost cried (hhhuuuaaaaa!!!)
Never in my life (in Holland)
have I felt that way.

K’Mir told me she was gonna come to the station where I was waiting for the tram and show me the bus
station. Fine then. Yet, I knew that it would take her some minute from the
flat to come down. First, she had to wake up, be in a real level of
consciousness. Second, maybe she would need to go the bathroom (??) Third, she
had to walk from her flat to the hall. That would really take some minutes. Then
she had to walk from the flat to the station. (The flat is very close to the
station. It doesn’t even take you more than 2 minutes to walk from the flat to
the tram station.) At that time, I realised I could not depend on her and let my sense
of security hang on something which was not sure (which was…I would never know
when she would be at the station). 

Now I know why
many people hate to wait. I was still standing at the station. Hummm….now I’m
gonna leave him alone. So, I walked away from the guy.  

Noooo!!!!!!

He was following
me!!!!! He walked behind my back!!!

I really
thought I was gonna cry! It wouldn’t
help, anyway.   

I crossed the
road. He crossed the road too. (Oh gosh, nooooo…..plsss….) I stopped. I was
standing on the pavement. He stopped. We were very close, less than 3m from
each other. I was in a deep…deep…deep… shit.. In front of me was a car waiting
for the green light. Oh, how I was really thinking of walking forward, knock
the door and ask them if they could help me. I didn’t do so. I insisted that I
would be able to handle the situation. (Yea Vina….)

The green light
was on, the car moved on. I could see that the woman inside the car was looking
at us. “Weird”, maybe that’s what she thought. Ow ow.., now my “saviour” has
left me. Very good Vina! Hahahaa….Ok, I gotta deal with him all by myself now.  

I kept looking at
the flat and wondering why K’Mir hasn’t appeared yet. I felt like calling her
again and asking her if she could come quickly. But I thought… no no no, I won’t
ask much. It was already good that she was willing to come to the station and show me the bus station. I remained silent.

I was thinking
about going back to the station because the guy was standing very close  to me
and he was really scary. That’s the thing. I just wanted to stay away from him.
But…I had to pass him to cross the road. Hahahahah….very nice!

Wotteva! Ain’t
care of anything at all! I moved. I turned my back, walked toward him and tried
to stay cool (blah!). Ooooohhhhhhh….ohh….ooohh….!!! He was following me!!!!!!! NO!
NO no no no no !!!! I knew for sure he was following me! So do you wanna know
what we did???? Instead of crossing that road, we were walking in a circle. I didn’t
want him to follow me but he kept doing so. I didn’t speed up my move because I
thought he would do the same thing if I did so. And bad things could happen. I
wasn’t trying to run (though I was thinking to do so; going back to the flat. I
have a reason for not doing so.) I had no clue of what to do, not at all. So I
stopped walking. I looked back at the flat again. “Ugh, she isn’t there yet”, I
told myself. “Ok Vin, now think of something.”, I asked myself. “Uhhu, like
what?” I answered myself. “Gosh, what should I do?” 

I froze. 

In all of a
sudden, I shouted, ”Kijk daar!” with my finger pointing in the air
(didn’t even know what I was pointing at. The trees??? Duh!) Hahahaahah….!!! Tuolol!
Bego amat sih???!! Vina…vina…. He didn’t even look at what I was pointing at.
Instead, he simpered at me. (Well, I wasn’t pointing at anything anyway.)
Yeahahaha…. I was hopeless… (hilf mir bitte…). I stood firmly on the ground. I
looked again at the flat, hoping that a miracle would happen; that K’Mir was
coming down.

Nothing happened.
(Yea, what d’ya expect??!) 

“Ok, as long as
he doesn’t do anything, I’m fine”, I tried to calm myself down again.

I
was wrong!

He was walking towards me!!! NO NO NO NO NO!!! O_o !!!!!
“That’s not the rule of the
game, dude. If I move, you move. I don’t move, you don’t move. That’s the rule!”
I felt like shouting.

Now, we were very.. very… very close. Distance: 50- 100cm.
For an odd stranger, that is very close! Gosh, how my heart pumped quicker and
harder than normal! Yet, I stood still. I looked back to the flat again.

Ah!

There she is!

But, she was still walking down the stairs. Please please, hurry
up!! Hurry up!! Please!      

Ooohhh…finally
there she was waking towards me, pheeeww… 

I approached her with stronger
knees. Weird, but the guy didn’t follow me. He stood still. Haiyaaaaa…..such a relief.
I talked to her about the odd stranger. When we were just about to cross the
road, he turned his back and tried to follow us. At the same time, the tram was
coming. Yes, right on time! I thanked her for coming to save me and quicky jumped into the tram. How I was really glad. My joy was doubled; got released
from the quirky guy and the tram finally came.

Now, I felt safe.
I stepped out at Delft Centraal Station.